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Interview Day – The Disappointment

Today, Austin had his interview with the Embassy in Nigeria and although did not fully deny him a visa, they have not approved him for a visa until I can find a joint sponsor that meets the income requirements I am unable to meet, on my own. In addition, they want more medical records and a statement from me as to why I have not been able to visit for the last two years. This statement they are requesting, they have already, in the 8 or more page letter I typed to USCIS when we filed our case initially.

I am devastated and asking, “why me.” Those around me saying, God has His reasons and I am asking myself why God would allow us to suffer this way, after all we have been through. We have waited 3 years and been through more than one mountain of challenges, several surgeries on me, and many more medical issues. I have no one that can assist or is willing to assist in joint sponsorship of my fiance.

I have been awake more than 24 hours and spent the last 8 to 10 hours crying off and on. When Austin first started telling me the story of what happened, I thought to myself, maybe he is spoofing me again, like he has been doing to me lately. But, the more he talked the more I began to realize the disappointment to come. I spent a month in his arms and wonder when will I see my soulmate, the love of my life, again.

You spend all this time leading up to this one moment in time… You never know what to expect, but you know they already have made their decision before you even arrived. All I can do now is pray that God will find a way for us to be together.

For those of you out there, that are together, hold your loved one close. remember them when they are gone, and love them with all your heart. I wouldn’t wish this feeling on my worst enemy.

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