The Ultimate Self-Exploration Journal by Gerald Confienza
Cover of Gerald Confienza’s Book that I will be using on my journey purchased on my Kindle through Amazon Books.
January 20, 2020 was my beloved Fiancé Austin’s 26th Birthday. We should have been together for this Birthday and we would have been having our wedding next month on Valentine’s Day. We rearranged our wedding the first time from February 14, 2019 and now, once again we must rearrange our wedding again from February 14, 2020 to February 14, 2021. It is difficult to have the U.S. Government and the Department of State at the U.S. Consular Embassy digging deeply into our personal lives for approximately 5-10 minutes and making a judgment about a person’s bona fide or not relationship and digging into their financials. As of now, I can no longer discuss our personal case, but I have some things in store for this year in an effort get some additional content on our blog. I have decided to break up our blog to include several different things throughout this year, rather than focusing on only our immigration case.
However, while we are in waiting to see what might happen with our case, I have decided to start a daily challenge, as well as, a yearly challenge. For my yearly challenge I want to read at least 20 books; however, this could change to increase and add more should I complete this challenge early. Check back frequently to see some new changes and subject additions. I am in start-up mode, currently, but I am starting my own business creating personalized craft ideas. I will be providing my Shopify account and some of the products that I am able to create for any event or just for your own personal use. Next, for my daily challenge I purchased a book to give me some writing prompts until I can safely discuss our immigration case again. I have purchased, “Writing Prompts: The Ultimate Self-Exploration Journal; Who Am I? & 199 Other Transformational Questions and Creative Writing Prompts for Self-Reflection and Personal Enlightenment by Gerald Confienza.”
The premise of this book is that journaling is “one of the most powerful tools we have at our disposal for self-discovery.”1 When you feel like you have no one in your life during the toughest of times, there is always a notebook available to write about what is happening in your life. Never throw away your notebooks or journals, because they offer a great platform to see the changes in yourself over the years. Secondly, handwriting is emphasized. Lastly, there are a few other reasons why Journaling is beneficial:
- Heightened Creativity – This teaches us to put ideas in order and brings out our creativity muscles, making them stronger. The more used, the better the performance.
- Prolonged Retention and Comprehension – Helps the brain retain things longer and helps structuring abstract ideas and concepts improving understanding on any given topic.
- Emotional Intelligence – A person experiencing grief or happiness use journaling to channel their emotions and mitigate their anxieties and depression.
- Better Penmanship and Creative Writing – Journaling can also assist in better penmanship and improves writing skills.
Mr. Confienza wants to instigate change in his readers, as stated by him, “If there is no change, there is no progress.” His hope is that the questions in his book will instigate “true change” in each of us. Throughout our lives we will have to make decisions that will cause change and effect and Mr. Confienza hopes that reading his book and answering the questions he has put in the book will not only be entertaining, but one of personal change, as well.
I want to add that I have no idea where this journal will take me in this journey, but I plan to follow Mr. Confienza’s instructions provided and answer each of his questions and write as if no one is looking, while opening myself to all of you, who read and follow my blog. I know that I have not been very active on this blog, but that is about to change. I will fit time in every day, as per one of the instructions. I am in the process of starting my own business and I also want to make some changes to our website again, also. I hope that you all enjoy this, and I hope that you will provide me honest, yet respectable responses, so I can not only learn about myself through this journey, but improve my writing creativity, as well.
2I want wish everyone a wonderful day as you wake up from wherever you lay your head at night and that you have a wonderful and beautiful day. 2“Being enriched in everything to all bountifulness which causeth through us thanksgiving to God.” (2 Corinthians 9:11)
Dear God we know that all good things come from You. You have blessed us with more than we need. Forgive us for the times we have been selfish and have not used what we have been given to help others. Give us generous hearts so that we may bless others so they will thank you, O Lord. Thank you for all you have given. May we use this bounty to bring others to You. In Jesus’ name, Amen. (Verse of Today; King James Bible App)
References 1Gerald Confienza – Writing Prompts: The Ultimate Self-Exploration Journal; pg. 5 2King James Bible App (Online) Verse the Day
Yesterday, I had an appointment with a new Cardiologist, because my Podiatrist has requested that I have this prior to surgery. It is my understanding that the Anesthesiologist might refuse and my surgery would have to be rescheduled. My mother had a difficult pregnancy with me and almost lost me. At birth, I was born with the umbilical cord around my neck and part of my body and I wasn’t breathing. It took some time for them to get a response, but later I was diagnosed with an Cardiac Arrhythmia, which is very common; there are more than 3 million per year diagnosed. A Cardiac Arrhythmia is also called an Irregular Heartbeat or improper beating of the heart, whether irregular, too fast, or too slow; and it occurs when electrical impulses in the heart don’t work properly.
I now have surgery scheduled, on October 30, 2019, the day before Halloween. It is difficult being so far apart from my wonderful fiancé, Austin, because I really hoped he would be here with me by now. I did not want to have another surgery without Austin by my side. Austin’s voice helps to soothe me when I am desperately in pain. He also has a way to calm me down when I become upset. I love him very much and miss him terribly. If I could visit him again, I would be on the next plane to Nigeria, but since my return from my last trip I was told that I would not be allowed to fly again without a physician’s clearance; which to date I have been unable to obtain due to some health issues that are slowly getting better. I dread going into surgery, because I know I will not be able to hold his hand and give him a kiss and knowing that when I wake up his face would be the first face I see.
International Relationships are extremely difficult, especially when you have health issues. Austin is my emotional support and I for him, as well. But, it just is not the same as having him with me physically. It is also difficult knowing that someone whom has never seen us together and spends only 5 minutes with us to tell us whether we can be together or not.
The Immigration process doesn’t make our lives any easier.
All I kept thinking when I was at the doctor appointment this morning was how much I truly miss Austin. Despite the stressors I have endured lately, I obtained cardiac clearance and have my surgery date. Since I was 18 years old I have now endured 26 surgeries and I still have many more to go, before this part of my journey is complete. I despise what Austin must go through every single day just so he can make sure that he is always available for me whenever I might need him for an emergency. But, he tries so hard and he truly does so much for me on a day to day basis.
I just pray that this upcoming surgery on my right foot will have me up and walking some until I have my next surgery to have my stimulators removed. Eventually, I will need a total knee replacement, wrist surgery, pain pump surgery, and lastly skin removal and a breast reduction and lift combined with Hernia repairs (I hope). I am so thankful to have Austin by my side at least through electronics, for now. It really sucks that our Immigration system would not even issue a Tourist Visa for him to be here for my surgery.
Austin, I love you so very much and I can’t wait until we are together again. You are my soulmate!
It’s me again Prince Austin. I am the fiancé to my super adorable woman, Princess Michelle. I’m here to talk about one major issue we are still suffering from until date in Nigeria, this issue is Power supply. I go through a lot to keep my phone on and not to lose contact with my woman because due to this long distance I want to be there for her at all times, especially because of her health issues, so I don’t want this issue with electricity here to get in the way. I wake up every morning, brush my teeth, and take my bath (with cold water every day, I might add), and then set out into the outrageously hot temperature, due to the hot sun, to the store or to my friend’s place (Williams), so I can get my phone charged and not get disconnected from my woman.
We both need each other and there is no way in hell I am going to allow Nigeria’s crazy issues with power get in the way of communication with my woman. That is why I go through this stress just to keep my phone charged. I know Michelle doesn’t like me stressing over the charging, but I can’t help it, because I feel completely useless if I can’t be there for my woman, via video call, or even voice calls, because somehow my voice takes her pains away, which makes me feel even more special. I just wish that someday, this issue of electricity will be solved and we can one day enjoy what we have, because a lot of businesses have closed down due a large amount of high bills for fuel and diesel, since they can’t depend on power supply either (to which it never comes). I’ll go through anything just to not lose connection with my woman, because she means the world to me and I don’t want her to ever feel alone on this journey, because it’s hard enough that we are so far way from each other.
I love you to the moon and back Michelle!
Thank you all for reading.