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The Ultimate Self-Exploration Journal by Gerald Confienza

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Cover of Gerald Confienza’s Book that I will be using on my journey purchased on my Kindle through Amazon Books.

January 20, 2020 was my beloved Fiancé Austin’s 26th Birthday.  We should have been together for this Birthday and we would have been having our wedding next month on Valentine’s Day.  We rearranged our wedding the first time from February 14, 2019 and now, once again we must rearrange our wedding again from February 14, 2020 to February 14, 2021.  It is difficult to have the U.S. Government and the Department of State at the U.S. Consular Embassy digging deeply into our personal lives for approximately 5-10 minutes and making a judgment about a person’s bona fide or not relationship and digging into their financials.  As of now, I can no longer discuss our personal case, but I have some things in store for this year in an effort get some additional content on our blog.  I have decided to break up our blog to include several different things throughout this year, rather than focusing on only our immigration case.

However, while we are in waiting to see what might happen with our case, I have decided to start a daily challenge, as well as, a yearly challenge.  For my yearly challenge I want to read at least 20 books; however, this could change to increase and add more should I complete this challenge early.  Check back frequently to see some new changes and subject additions.  I am in start-up mode, currently, but I am starting my own business creating personalized craft ideas.  I will be providing my Shopify account and some of the products that I am able to create for any event or just for your own personal use.  Next, for my daily challenge I purchased a book to give me some writing prompts until I can safely discuss our immigration case again.  I have purchased, “Writing Prompts: The Ultimate Self-Exploration Journal; Who Am I? & 199 Other Transformational Questions and Creative Writing Prompts for Self-Reflection and Personal Enlightenment by Gerald Confienza.”

The premise of this book is that journaling is “one of the most powerful tools we have at our disposal for self-discovery.”1  When you feel like you have no one in your life during the toughest of times, there is always a notebook available to write about what is happening in your life.  Never throw away your notebooks or journals, because they offer a great platform to see the changes in yourself over the years.  Secondly, handwriting is emphasized.  Lastly, there are a few other reasons why Journaling is beneficial:

  • Heightened Creativity – This teaches us to put ideas in order and brings out our creativity muscles, making them stronger.  The more used, the better the performance.
  • Prolonged Retention and Comprehension – Helps the brain retain things longer and helps structuring abstract ideas and concepts improving understanding on any given topic.
  • Emotional Intelligence – A person experiencing grief or happiness use journaling to channel their emotions and mitigate their anxieties and depression.
  • Better Penmanship and Creative Writing – Journaling can also assist in better penmanship and improves writing skills.

Mr. Confienza wants to instigate change in his readers, as stated by him, “If there is no change, there is no progress.”  His hope is that the questions in his book will instigate “true change” in each of us.  Throughout our lives we will have to make decisions that will cause change and effect and Mr. Confienza hopes that reading his book and answering the questions he has put in the book will not only be entertaining, but one of personal change, as well.

        I want to add that I have no idea where this journal will take me in this journey, but I plan to follow Mr. Confienza’s instructions provided and answer each of his questions and write as if no one is looking, while opening myself to all of you, who read and follow my blog.  I know that I have not been very active on this blog, but that is about to change.  I will fit time in every day, as per one of the instructions.  I am in the process of starting my own business and I also want to make some changes to our website again, also.  I hope that you all enjoy this, and I hope that you will provide me honest, yet respectable responses, so I can not only learn about myself through this journey, but improve my writing creativity, as well.

        2I want wish everyone a wonderful day as you wake up from wherever you lay your head at night and that you have a wonderful and beautiful day.  2“Being enriched in everything to all bountifulness which causeth through us thanksgiving to God.” (2 Corinthians 9:11)

Dear God we know that all good things come from You.  You have blessed us with more than we need.  Forgive us for the times we have been selfish and have not used what we have been given to help others.  Give us generous hearts so that we may bless others so they will thank you, O Lord.  Thank you for all you have given.  May we use this bounty to bring others to You.  In Jesus’ name, Amen. (Verse of Today; King James Bible App)

References 1Gerald Confienza – Writing Prompts: The Ultimate Self-Exploration Journal; pg. 5 2King James Bible App (Online) Verse the Day

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Surgery Coming up soon!

If I could ask for just one thing, it would be that I be present for my woman’s surgery 😭😭😭😭😭. It’s very sad and depressing but we remain stronger for each other because the moment any one of us feels weak and unable to support the other, it wouldn’t be healthy for our relationship because now is the time when we need each other the most. We refuse Devil entry into our life because our life belongs to God.

Thank You Readers.

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Unemployment and Hardships in Nigeria

I went into the news site, opened it up, and the first headline there was, over 15 million Nigerians are jobless.

I ask myself, if over 15 million are jobless, how many are with jobs? What are the government doing? Why are we suffering and smiling? When are we ever going to Enjoy and smile at the same time? The government don’t seem to care what we the masses are going through, all they care about is their own Pocket, they don’t care if everyone else suffers and dies. When will all this stop?

We can’t even protest because even those that tried to, are behind bars or injected to death because they see them as threat. Sowore who protested is still behind bars for months now, and this same man ran for President in the last election but lost. When is the Nigerian government ever going to respect it’s citizens? They take all our rights away and we can’t even do anything.

If Nigerian government can say 15 million are jobless, that means over 40million are jobless because Nigerian government are known for lies and cover-ups, they’d never give you the right figure.

When Good luck Jonathan Was president, Nigerians could afford 3square meals a day because food was cheaper and affordable to everyone, President Buari came into power and made our lives a living hell, we can barely afford 1square meal because food is super expensive and a lot of Nigerians have resulted to suicide because they feel nothing is left for them. Our President is driving the masses to suicide. How do we stop this government? How do we correct the wrongs?

Unless we Nigerians can all unite and fight this corruption, Corrupt politicians alongside President Buari and his entire Cabinet will continue to have their way.

Thank y’all.

God Bless Y’all.

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Jesus take the wheel

Sometimes, we worry and worry forgetting that Jesus has always fought our every battle, we need to quit worrying and just believe it is well because truly truly, it is well and I pray that the Lord Almighty will fight for us and we shall hold our peace and he shall take the wheel because we can’t do it, it’s his fight not ours.

God bless y’all!

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Cardiac Clearance for Surgery

Yesterday, I had an appointment with a new Cardiologist, because my Podiatrist has requested that I have this prior to surgery. It is my understanding that the Anesthesiologist might refuse and my surgery would have to be rescheduled. My mother had a difficult pregnancy with me and almost lost me. At birth, I was born with the umbilical cord around my neck and part of my body and I wasn’t breathing. It took some time for them to get a response, but later I was diagnosed with an Cardiac Arrhythmia, which is very common; there are more than 3 million per year diagnosed. A Cardiac Arrhythmia is also called an Irregular Heartbeat or improper beating of the heart, whether irregular, too fast, or too slow; and it occurs when electrical impulses in the heart don’t work properly.

I now have surgery scheduled, on October 30, 2019, the day before Halloween. It is difficult being so far apart from my wonderful fiancé, Austin, because I really hoped he would be here with me by now. I did not want to have another surgery without Austin by my side. Austin’s voice helps to soothe me when I am desperately in pain. He also has a way to calm me down when I become upset. I love him very much and miss him terribly. If I could visit him again, I would be on the next plane to Nigeria, but since my return from my last trip I was told that I would not be allowed to fly again without a physician’s clearance; which to date I have been unable to obtain due to some health issues that are slowly getting better. I dread going into surgery, because I know I will not be able to hold his hand and give him a kiss and knowing that when I wake up his face would be the first face I see.
International Relationships are extremely difficult, especially when you have health issues. Austin is my emotional support and I for him, as well. But, it just is not the same as having him with me physically. It is also difficult knowing that someone whom has never seen us together and spends only 5 minutes with us to tell us whether we can be together or not.

The Immigration process doesn’t make our lives any easier.

All I kept thinking when I was at the doctor appointment this morning was how much I truly miss Austin. Despite the stressors I have endured lately, I obtained cardiac clearance and have my surgery date. Since I was 18 years old I have now endured 26 surgeries and I still have many more to go, before this part of my journey is complete. I despise what Austin must go through every single day just so he can make sure that he is always available for me whenever I might need him for an emergency. But, he tries so hard and he truly does so much for me on a day to day basis.

I just pray that this upcoming surgery on my right foot will have me up and walking some until I have my next surgery to have my stimulators removed. Eventually, I will need a total knee replacement, wrist surgery, pain pump surgery, and lastly skin removal and a breast reduction and lift combined with Hernia repairs (I hope). I am so thankful to have Austin by my side at least through electronics, for now. It really sucks that our Immigration system would not even issue a Tourist Visa for him to be here for my surgery.


Austin, I love you so very much and I can’t wait until we are together again. You are my soulmate!

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Power supply in Nigeria- What we really go through

Hi Everyone,

It’s me again Prince Austin. I am the fiancé to my super adorable woman, Princess Michelle. I’m here to talk about one major issue we are still suffering from until date in Nigeria, this issue is Power supply. I go through a lot to keep my phone on and not to lose contact with my woman because due to this long distance I want to be there for her at all times, especially because of her health issues, so I don’t want this issue with electricity here to get in the way. I wake up every morning, brush my teeth, and take my bath (with cold water every day, I might add), and then set out into the outrageously hot temperature, due to the hot sun, to the store or to my friend’s place (Williams), so I can get my phone charged and not get disconnected from my woman.

We both need each other and there is no way in hell I am going to allow Nigeria’s crazy issues with power get in the way of communication with my woman. That is why I go through this stress just to keep my phone charged. I know Michelle doesn’t like me stressing over the charging, but I can’t help it, because I feel completely useless if I can’t be there for my woman, via video call, or even voice calls, because somehow my voice takes her pains away, which makes me feel even more special. I just wish that someday, this issue of electricity will be solved and we can one day enjoy what we have, because a lot of businesses have closed down due a large amount of high bills for fuel and diesel, since they can’t depend on power supply either (to which it never comes). I’ll go through anything just to not lose connection with my woman, because she means the world to me and I don’t want her to ever feel alone on this journey, because it’s hard enough that we are so far way from each other.
I love you to the moon and back Michelle!

Thank you all for reading.

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Our Journey Begins

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How We Met

Well, let me start first by saying this is a very interesting story, but not the most desirable start to any relationship. But, for us it worked out; I am so glad it did! Austin is the love of my life, he is my world, my love, my everything, and second in my life to the Great I Am and Lord and Savior. The easiest start to this story is the most painful part for me. However, I hope by telling my story I might help other women, whom have either experienced this already, move on, or whom have never experienced this learn a few things, to assist them in gauging their current or future relationship, whether local or international. But, those lessons will come in a different post, but for now I want to focus on, “How Did Austin & I Meet.”

Ok, so here it goes…

In 2011, I actually met another Nigerian man from the Yoruba Tribe, and in 2012 we met and married. The main reason I married him was, because he told me that in order for us to be together we had to marry and then file for a, “Spousal Visa.” If only I had know then what I now know. What I did not know at the time was that, my now ex-husband, had been lying to me about many things from the very beginning of our relationship, because his primary target was me, as a means to obtain a Greencard to come permanently to America. I, also had no idea of the violent and narcissistic behavior, he had within his darkened soul and hardened heart.

In March 2015 he arrived in the U.S. and by June 2015, he had left me. I tried for months to get him to return home, to no avail. He had stopped almost all communication with me and rarely responded to my emails, after cutting me from all other communication methods. He refused to disclose his location and I was beginning to give up. I had no intentions or plans to meet anyone else, especially not another Nigerian, but God had other plans for me. As I watched my current marriage continue to crumble, I got more involved in a religious Facebook Group I had remained in from my single years through my married years, because I really liked the Christian content and people I met, including Austin, I just had no idea what Austin would come to mean for me in my life.

We began as acquaintances who would comment on one another’s postings occasionally, to then becoming friends on Facebook, next we became close friends outside of Facebook, and then finally falling in love with each other, all while I was still married, but separated for one year. My ex-husband had made no efforts to move toward reconciling our relationship, in fact it seemed that my ex-husband, was moving further from me rather than closer. So there was Austin, he sent me a Facebook friend request and I sat there for 3 days looking at the request, praying to God about it, and checking his profile a lot more thoroughly. I thought well, what could it hurt to have one more friend on my list. I never anticipated he would actually message me.

“Will you marry me.”

“Of course, I will, my love.”

Well, he did message me, the very next day! I saw his message and something urged me to reply him and we have been inseparable ever since. We met on March 2, 2016 and on November 9, 2016 I flew to Nigeria and spent a month with him and met his entire family. It was quite a difference from my visit with my ex-husband. Upon returning to the U.S., I was able to finalize my divorce by October 9, 2017, the day before, I was once again, released from the hospital, still very ill. But, I was present in court, barely hanging on, yet my rx did not appear, however. But, on October 10, 2017 Austin surprised me with a video call and he proposed to me. There he was holding a piece of cardboard with the words, “Will you marry me.” He was all dressed up and waited patiently for me to read the sign. My answer, “Of course, I will, my love.” I have always dreamed a man would decide when he wanted to ask for my hand in marriage without any urgency from me and that he would find some creative way to do so. I knew that when a man came along willing to do all those things for me, he would be the one! It finally happened, with Austin…


The rest is history and our journey truly began that day, because now engaged we could begin the filing process for a K-1 Fiancé Visa. Now it is June 2019 and we are still fighting with immigration to be together. I trust God and I know that soon we shall be together, in His timing, in His way.

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Activating Your Faith

But have you ever wondered why your life doesn’t always reflect these promises? How do believers activate God’s promises in their lives? Is there some secret or formula involved? Well, yes, there is, sort of…

This question has always been in my mind. Today, after going through, yet another challenge to my faith in God, I came across this article written by Leslie White on June 3, 2019… Is God talking to me?

Throughout my life I have rarely experienced the promises of God. I have spent most of my life, living in disappointment with my life circumstances, multiple failed relationships, and constant family turmoil. Now, I am dealing with constant daily medical issues and God finally graced my life, by adding Austin to my life, but once again the rejection felt by the interview at the Nigerian Embassy, has me headed backwards in my head, yet again.

I know I should be positive, even with disappointment, because disappointment can become sinful, sin deceives us so that truth seems like a lie, and lies seem like the truth. Check out this article below. It will change your perception.

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Interview Day – The Disappointment

Today, Austin had his interview with the Embassy in Nigeria and although did not fully deny him a visa, they have not approved him for a visa until I can find a joint sponsor that meets the income requirements I am unable to meet, on my own. In addition, they want more medical records and a statement from me as to why I have not been able to visit for the last two years. This statement they are requesting, they have already, in the 8 or more page letter I typed to USCIS when we filed our case initially.

I am devastated and asking, “why me.” Those around me saying, God has His reasons and I am asking myself why God would allow us to suffer this way, after all we have been through. We have waited 3 years and been through more than one mountain of challenges, several surgeries on me, and many more medical issues. I have no one that can assist or is willing to assist in joint sponsorship of my fiance.

I have been awake more than 24 hours and spent the last 8 to 10 hours crying off and on. When Austin first started telling me the story of what happened, I thought to myself, maybe he is spoofing me again, like he has been doing to me lately. But, the more he talked the more I began to realize the disappointment to come. I spent a month in his arms and wonder when will I see my soulmate, the love of my life, again.

You spend all this time leading up to this one moment in time… You never know what to expect, but you know they already have made their decision before you even arrived. All I can do now is pray that God will find a way for us to be together.

For those of you out there, that are together, hold your loved one close. remember them when they are gone, and love them with all your heart. I wouldn’t wish this feeling on my worst enemy.